Minor Setback...

Maybe being on fire for Christ isn't going to be as easy or simple as I believed.  It always seems to be when things are heading in the right direction, or when my mind is becoming clear that it all goes wrong all over again.  Each time worse than the last.  Coming out of one of the most spiritually challenging and rewarding summers in 2013 one of my friends sent me this

"You know what I realized? After coming out of the Timothy program, we are all so happy and close with God that of course the devil would try to tear us down right?  That's why I haven't had that great of a time the past three months!  But I realized now we can't let him bring us down and we just need to remember what is important and how blessed we are to have God and everything will be okay!"

Now that's all easier said than done, but it was a pretty insightful realization that she shared with me a year ago.  The devil wants to tear us down the most when we are the strongest, or most hopeful in our faith, right?  That makes sense, he doesn't want us to be strong in our faith, he doesn't want God to prevail.

It's just the thing is that the longer I'm in this battle it is getting harder and harder to say no to the devil and yes to Jesus.  I'm shutting down, pushing away anyone and anything, retreating back into my own little bubble.  Is the fight worth it?

I guess my hope, or my prayer is that I have the strength to keep fighting, and to keep going.

Happy Halloween